by myself

What do I do to ignore them behind me?
Do I follow my instincts blindly?
Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?
Do I sit here and try to stand it? Or do I try to catch them red - handed?
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness, Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness? Because I can’t hold on / when I’m stretched so thin I make the right moves but I’m lost within I put on my daily façade but then I just end up getting hurt again by myself [myself] I ask why, but in my mind I find I can’t rely on myself [myself] I ask why, but in my mind I find I can’t rely on myselfI can’t hold on To what I want when I’m stretched so thin It’s all too much to take in I can’t hold on To anything watching everything spin With thoughts of failure sinking in If I Turn my back I’m defenseless And to go blindly seems senseless If I hide my pride and let it all go on / then they’ll Take from me ‘till everything is gone If I let them go I’ll be outdone But if I try to catch them I’ll be outrun If I’m killed by the questions like a cancer Then I’ll be buried in the silence of the answer [by myself] [myself] I ask why, but in my mind I find I can’t rely on myself[myself] I ask why, but in my mind I find I can’t rely on myselfI can’t hold on To what I want when I’m stretched so thin It’s all too much to take in I can’t hold on To anything watching everything spin With thoughts of failure sinking inHow do you think / I’ve lost so much I’m so afraid / I’m out of touch How do you expect / I will know what to do When all I know / Is what you tell me to Don’t you (know) I can’t tell you how to make it (go) No matter what I do, how hard I (try) I can’t seem to convince myself (why) I’m stuck on the outside How do you think / I’ve lost so much I’m so afraid / I’m out of touch How do you expect / I will know what to do When all I know / Is what you tell me to Don’t you (know) I can’t tell you how to make it (go) No matter what I do, how hard I (try) I can’t seem to convince myself (why) I’m stuck on the outside I can’t hold on To what I want when I’m stretched so thin It’s all too much to take in I can’t hold on To anything watching everything spin With thoughts of failure sinking inI can’t hold on To what I want when I’m stretched so thin It’s all too much to take in I can’t hold on To anything watching everything spin With thoughts of failure sinking...